It’s been bothering me for quite awhile now, I’m not saying I’m the coolest person in the world or that I’m the best person ever…but the thing that bothers me is, how all these girls fall for me and how some want to cut my dick off. Yea, it’s understood that everyone is different, how I act and what I say deeply affects what these girls think of me.
What is the secret? That I don’t know. When I meet someone new, I talk to them very politely or very jerk like, that is…me flirting with them, it depends on the girl I guess. I normally tell them what I do, piano, airbrush, web design, tae kwon do…etc. I tend to show off things, like my collection or the things I watch, anime related. I guess that is what draws them in or what pushes them away.
I have all these girls who are my friends, and I believe that one or two of them like me, they get clingy and want to hang out with me. There are even girls; I hope they are girls, over the net on the chat box at M.3.3.W, some of them have became obsessed with me. I guess it’s the pictures and my website I showed them. Yea, I pretend to be a pretty boy, I do super dumb poser pictures, and I cosplay…that and most girls in real life love to play with my hair…or just love my crazy anime like hair, I guess it’s the hair…I remember Raythe, when she was dating me, that the best thing about me is my “kick ass hair.”
I don’t even think I’m attractive. I look in the mirror, trying to smile, do some stupid poses, fix my hair, but I see nothing. But appearance isn’t just the determining factor; it’s more of the character they see in me. The interesting conversation in the car when I’m driving my ladies around or the pure randomness that we do, like rick rolling the car next to us. The parties I throw and the movie nights we have together, with Kat and Kelsy.
I just don’t know…what’s so special about me or why these girls hate me. Then again, I was the problem that drove Raythe away. Then there was hippo girl who was materialistic and wanted shit from me…being a cheapo. I try to be sweet…at least…the flower thing I did to Tam…It all started with Raythe back when, it was based on a movie called “My sassy girl.” Oh the things I pick up from romance dramas.
To finish, I just wanted to ramble things that bothered me. And I had to help my step sister with her…paper…god the engrish and grammar…which ruined my flow of concentration. GAH!
I have no luck finding anyone; they call me racist for having a preference of only Asians. But I am still in love with Christine =)
//zeron the heart broken loser
bg song: Sunao na Niji - Surface
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